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i went to TARC today..
applying for changing course..(from public relations to broadcasting)
hmm...hope dat they wil approve....not oni me...but both of me n shin yew...
i wonder if they juz approve oni any one of us..
reli dunno wat will happen...n i gotta go through 2 dreadful weeks bcoz of the new offer letter..
gosh...hope dat both of us will suceed in this application..
lolz..
and today...Mimi,the youngest hamster in my house had gaf birth 3 little babies...
my god!!!!they were soooo cute!
even though there werent fur on their body...but they r still very very very cute!
o!i lov'em all!!!!haha...
thinking of getting names for them now..
n i hope dat mimi will be a gud n responsible mother...
feeling dat all my babies had grown up...
3rd generation appears...
wow...this is amazing!
my parents r goin to headache again this time...
coz they got to buy cages again...hahaha

Thursday...

Wow...driving was sooo00ooo syok!!
i was driving at the high way with quite a high speed...lolz..
mr wong is so scare to sit in the car..(aiya dun care la)
its was kinda boring day....
juz sit at home and continue watching my ye man nai nai...till d laz episode...
n i knew a boy..hu loves dancing very very very much in friendster!
v kept smsing for the whole day...i only realise dat v have alot of same things in common..
haha...its really a pleasure to know him...
n he even confess to me! OMG! haha...
feeling curious rite? he said dat im the type of his gal...lolz...
wondering...
n today i hurt yuk wah...feeling bad for my ownself...
but i musnt let this continue n try to be frank towards him..
i hope he will understand why i do so...
its bcoz i dun wan him to get hurt bcoz of me anymore...
i dun wan him to wait for me with full of anticipation n keep dreaming dat i will come back...
its not dat he's not gud..
juz dat..v aint meant to be...
however...he will always be the best best man inside my heart...
thx for everything...

Boring D@y~~

lolz...doin ntg at home

juz watch ye man nai nai at home...

borrowed from my sista...

so tired...tomolo goin to langat...

practise driving...my god!!!

driving test is coming very very soon..

hope i can past it without any obstacles la...^^

dear...i m missing you now...

even though i juz met u laz nite...but then...

i m greedy...

i wish dat i can c u on the first moment everytime i wake up...

i wish i can play wif u everyday..

i wish to c u dancing n sing everyday...
omg! m i crazy in love???

haha...its hard to describe how it felt...

even though its already five years... everyday i feel da same..

i miss you very very much...

deep down inside i m still waiting for miracles to appear..

i m still waiting for u...even though i noe its impossible for us..

i cant tell you this in front of u..

i juz can say it in my blog...

My Dear, I LOVE YOU...

Grown up!!

Mother's Day is coming very very soon..
Recently i m busy preparing a present for my mum...
its a diary..wif my pictures inside...
starting from the day i was born till now...
I do this bcoz i want her to remember me always...
n if one day im not by her side she can still c me in the diary when she misses me..
There were so many thoughts inside me when i look back all the photos taken...
I saw the process of my growth...
from a baby to a young girl...
from a weak one to a tough girl...(but still will easily burst into tears)
I feel dat my parents really love me very much...
so far...they had tried their best to protect me n give me the best...
They always think of my future...give me a lot of advice..(even though i dun reli listen wat they say sumtimes..)
I m really glad to have them as my parents....
i can see their love n concern in every pictures we took together...
Daddy Mummy, I love you guys sooo000ooo much!!!(if you guys did not offend me)
Dats why i always try my best to keep my promise: get gud results n b a useful human being in the future...
However..you guys must try to let me go...
If not i will nvr stand up again when i fall....
But i understand..even though how old n mature i m, i m still a small kid to you..
Anyway i still wanna say thank you....to both of you!
You guys are my best daddy mummy, my best best friends! I LOVE YOU!! ( muacks!^^)

The End Of Project Superstar..

Finally!!! It comes to the end of this programme...
Finally..there's an answer for it...which everyone is anticipating wif anxiety..
Kay bcame the champion for the superstar...
how should i feel?
As a girl..i feel proud because finally there is a girl hu can bcome the superstar successfully..
but on the other side of me...
Hau deserves this champion more than kay does...
Why did I say so?
Its because..kay actually is not dat musical n there is a limit for her progressions..
Yes..her voice is sweet..but can this voice stand still in the future?
Can this voice without any techniques or skills melt our hearts?
U listen to a song is not because of her appearance but her voice...
Haiz..watever la..its the fact..
However I believe Hau will succeed in the future..
n his voice will long last compare to kay..
Hau, u muz add oil o!!!! Ur smile is so damn cute! (like a baby horse^^)
N thru this i realised dat entertainment is dark...
lolz..dunno how to say..juz dont like the judges in superstar..(unfair)
dunno la..its juz my point of view...
hehe.....its so late..yet i hvnt bath...
feeling so lazy n really wish to lay on my bed now!
gotta change hamster's bedding now..
after this i will bath n sleep..
n this will b the end for my day....
actually today is 4th of may ad...haha

Busy Day!

Another busy day again for me!!!
haha...woke up around 9am n prepare to bath..make up..
to meet him...n go practise for my coming singing competition in neway..
practising genie zhuo's ... shou xin..(a nice song)
a song suits my feeling..n my voice deep down inside me...
lolz...after that went to buy bank draft in maybank...
then go back to my houz..eat ice cream n mend his funny shoes which can "talk"!
lolz!!!! what a day..i bought something called "inai" to colour my hair..
unfortunately...failed....haiz...dunno wat hell thing is dat la...
haha...juz dont bother la...
he left after getting back his shoes..
watching him leaving me every single minute..my heart turns sour..
even though i m goin to c him again tomorrow..
i will still miss him tonight..i reli wish to say it out but i cant
my god! he's juz my gud sista..i can love him as my sis only..
tomorrow i m going to decide wat course i m goin to take..
either public relations or broadcasting..
which one should i choose?
n how is my future if i choose anyone of them?
I love the lessons taught in broadcasting..
love being backstage workers n performers at the front stage..
but i love public relation n social work too..
this will be a very hard choice for me...
help!!!!

Thoughts for The Day..

what a tiring day!!!!!
woke up so early n watch hong kong drama..
after that i went to my granny's house n teach my cousins...
guiding them in their studies...while teaching, the two brothers kept fighting..
gosh! The elder brother even use Kamus Perdana to throw towards the younger ones..
And even use foul words to scold each other!
haiz..they should love each other..they will never feel how bored it was for an only child..like me.. when i have problems or feeling down..i really dunno how to express besides looking for friends to cry out..and ppl who oways have problems like me for sure will find at least two to three friends to cry out everyday..haiz..will there be so many friends for me to disturb?? sure they will feel that im very disturbing and irritating someday...
And i saw my gud fren's blog...talking about my story...
Am i really dat naive? Should i trust him or not??
My friend was not the only one who asked me to beware of him..
Some even told me he is just using the girl to get rid of me..
Ya...sounds like he is using me...taking for granted..but i really dunno wat to do..
I really wish that i can follow my instincts n trust him..
as he is a friend that i've knew for 6 to 7 years..
the only one i m very very very happy to be with
the only one who's so "silent" with me...
the only one who had been through so many ups n downs with me..
the only one whom i think at first everytime n everyday..
the only one i love very much...
(bursting into tears again..wuwuwu~)
sumtimes i m really angry with him..
n will nvr forget this sms he sent to me:
"wat you sacrificed was just your own will..n u nvr ask for my permissions b4"
Till now i still remember it...
Very dissapointed..heartbroken..n wish to end up this friendship at once..
But chances were given again n again..
I really hope that he nvr lied to me...nvr use me b4..n really treat me as a very very gud fren..
even though he doesnt love me...
he will nvr take advantages on my feelings for him..
I m struggling...
Its easy to say...stay away from him n forget about him..
But in another way..its really tough..tougher than the d hardest exam in the world..
sounds childish?nvr try nvr know...
Hope wat angel said is not true...
I dont want to be hurt anymore...This is a not a good game..