Take care my dear Han Han

Had a steamboat farewell party at yun han's house last sat..
while me n sian discovering her room..
we found out a photo frame wif a pic of 3 of us~



v took this when we were frm3..i reli couldnt blif dat she had frame this pic up..n place it on her make up desk!!!!
i reli feel touched wif it..i wanna cry dy but paiseh ler..

Dear Jaimie:

another hour u will b sitting in a plane heading to India..
separating wif all the people in Malaysia for a year..
thank u for being such a gud fren wif me for al these years..
thou v contact less but our frenship will nvr get worse..
im proud to haf a fren like u...
missing those days v hang out together every morning and recess..
those days v sing together and go for competition..
study for exams..
take care of urslf when ur in India..



me and sian will heart u always~ ^^
remember to gif us discount for teeth treatment in the future..xp

It Comes to The Boundaries Already

i've been struggling since friday..
thinking of the plan: being a fren is much more better than being a couple..

finally i let go..
maybe because i want him to care for me for life...?
sumtimes i can be rational and let go easily..
its like i agree and understand y both of us need to do so..
but sumtimes i reli get very emo and lose control..
especially during the nights..
felt very insecure without his accompaniment..

so i will keep calling and disturb him..
i reli dun wan it..but i reli cant take it...
wonder y he can bail so easily continue his life like there's ntg happen before...
n im the one to clean up the mess..?
my emo probs, mum's nagging and she disallow me to pak tor anymore..
treat me sumthg like i was in secondary school and lock me at home..

finally he gets mad and scold me..for disturbing him..
say frens wont kacau each other,
but does he noe y im doin so?

i noe myslf clear..i reli cant let go..
even for life i oso will keep disturb..
dats y i rather walk away from him for life..not even a fren anymore..
yes i will cont crying anytime i feel like doing so,,
but i will try my best to hide from him...

its juz a week ago v had our vacation..
its unbelievable dat things happen dat fast..
i'll try to cope...
feeling numb nw..cant even cry jor~

i remember wat choon mei told me during the day v had our eng finals..
u're rite my dear..
sumtimes being frens will be much more better than being couple..
at least sum ppl he care for his frens more than his gf..
he thinks dat friends is everthg for his whole life...

i reli understand this theory..
but y couldnt i juz let go?
y m i so stubborn? reli so dat obssesed?

i reli noe im ntg compared to ur frens..
but i still remain silent..
so is this the right way?

alicia..ur not a stupid human being..when will u be rational instead of emotional?
my head is swimming~~~~

Cherng,

I love you baby~ ^^
I like you hold my hand..
n go wherever u want..
Im always here for u..
muacksss

Holiday!!!!!! ^^

yay..finali i've finish my exams!!!!
start to plan on vacations and stuff lo!!!! XD
i got so many plans wif me right now...haha

1)go bek to my mask habits..lol..skincare is damn important one!
share wif u guys one gud thg:



function: relieve skin stress..makes u indulged!
reli very comfortable wif it.. RM6.90 per pcs nia!
buy it in the face shop! hoho..

2)go vacation wif my hubby!!!!
3)go for personal grooming class..Expression Master? or Diva production?
4)learn sum new software..shd upgrade myslf duh..
5)hong kong drama!!!! yeah...long time nvr watch tv dy...
muz get sumthg to watch..
6)slim down..mum say me fat jor..later cherng cherng dun wan me
7)go partay!!!!
8)get joyee her birthday present..
9)plan for Encore publicity and promotion event..
10)learn cooking!!! christmas is cuming ler..wanna do sumthg for hubby..^^
11)practise my piano..dec exam ler..T.T
12)hang out wif CHOON MEI, ZI XIAN, PIG PIG n any other frens ;)

hmm..dats wat i plan for..
juz feel so happy for this sem holidays..
cz i've got wat i wan..gudboi cherng..
no worries if he flirt wif gals again i ma go flirt wif guys lo..XP
(cherng will kill me if he saw this..)

i duno y i wil b so giddy whenever i c my boii..
its like awww~ i miss him..^^
as long as he is wif me i wun care about other thgs..
whole brain thinking of him..haha..sapo betul
n my mum wun reli nag me in studies..
holidays mar~

so buddies, wats ur plan for holidays huh?
btw i gtg now..
bath, dress up and go pick baby cherng and go gai gai lo^^



Cherng cherng!!!! (ppl who noe me will noe how i shout at his name! XD)

MNG Disaster

ROFL...y i cant digests the notes though i've been reading it for the whole day?
this sem sure die gao gao ady..
every subject oso hard to get A..
T____T

Weird Dream

u noe i had the same dream continuously when i was sleeping just now?
i dreamt dat a HORSECOME(please translate into mandarin)bcame a human being with a very strong power..like a monster..
he went to attack people around times square and kill all of them..
me n my parents were thr oso..
we were at an antique shop sumwhr duno 3rd or 4th floor..
he kill people one by one..
my dad was sacrificed to save me..
me n my mother run to the lift and take it to the highest floor...
20th sumthg..
when the lift door was opened, it was a hostel in PULAPOL..@@
then v hide inside a room.
after an hour we saw him running towards the balai through a window..
v quicky tear down the curtain n tie it so dat v can slip away..
v escaped..
thn i was awoke bcz my mother is soo noisy..

when i return to slp..
it was like another movie again..
me n my bro were in high school..
he is a basketball player..
me, mum, aunty and brother were inside a classroom..
duno preparing wat..(i 4got ady)
when we heard dat the MONSTER (same people) is approaching the school,
v quickly ran away..
i left my handphone in the class...
so my brother accompany me go up to take it..
s i insist dat i want it to call cherng cherng..

the monster smelt us..
he went into the class..i got the phone but it was too late..
my bro beg him to leave me alone..
n he push me out from the class
then i heard them reading sumthg written on the classroom's wall..
its like a poem..i cant reli remember..
but i remember they said : sacrifice is a player's will..
then my brother shouted once n the whole skul remain silent..
i kept running downstairs to meet my mum..
then v cried and left the school...

ever since dat day my bro did not appear anymore nor the monster..

wat kinda dream is this? Nightmares!!!! T_____T
n im feeling so tired right after the dream..==

The Study&Exam Weeks

you duno how hard i studied for this semester..
adoi..
everyday sit in the library for at least 5 hours! @@
thou i juz study those so-called "guidelines" lar~
but i reli use to memorize wat i've studied and answered the exam questions 100% like wat was written in the notes..not even a single word left..lol



i was so addicted to cheesecakes recently..
i duno y..
juz very desperate for it right after i've done my revision..
everyday..ppl can c me saying eating cheesecake in facebook..haha

i've already tried my best in the exams..
wondering how many subjects i will get A this time..
as ALL the subjects are not easy this time..T__T

damn stress..@@
o ya..n thr's sum confession i wanna make here since i dun haf time about it b4 tis..

yes, i've turn my head back to cherng
its bcz i cant feel the real sayang of dat bf...
i feel like he loves me not bcz of he reli loves me..
he loves me juz bcz he is my boyfren..
izit abstract? lol

when u reli meet sum1 u love,
u will reli get obsessed wif him or her..
though he or she doesnt belongs to u
u will nvr grumble too much telling everyone dat he or she wasted ur time n money..
yeah, n maybe u will try to start a new relationship..
but all the time u will still be thinking of him or her..
wont juz let go dat ezily..

i've predict wat u will say earlier..
i reli hate calculative ppl..
ppl might blame me for being such a bad girl..
but i rather follow a quite playful guy who reli reli loves me..
than a guy who juz love me bcz im his gf..

so..im happi now ^^

btw i gotta off to college now..
wanna study again..
toddles~

09/09/09 9.09pm

hmm... gues u guys will now wat im gonna write exactly..




i love u hubby...
hope dat u'll always remember the ups n downs v haf been thru...
hope dat v'll reli walk till the end..
i've never regret to forgive u..
thank u for everythg..
thank u for changing to b a gud boii...
n protect me when im in the hot soup
im happy to be wif u ^^

MWAHX =)

I Love You, My Friend

you noe actu im damn angry now...
you were one of my best friend before...
v bath together..play together..sleep together..
i miss the days v share the laughter and secrets..

you were sumone with a great smile and innocent..
you were a girl with lots of dreams..
who wanted freedom, being pampered by ur family..
you were a girl who will voice out wats reli inside u..

but now..

you are sumone without any happy feelings..
even if u smile, i can see you wearing a mask..
you are being control by your parents..
you are a girl with full of secrets..

i reli feel sakit hati to c u bcumin another person..
i wanted to help u..
but i couldnt..i reli feel sorry...
i wanna keep in touch with you..but..im not allowed..
i would like to noe more about u..
share wif u wat i've been through..and advise u..
but there is sumthg between us...

i dun mind ur parents say i lead u to be sumone bad..
i dun mind they insult ppl around me..especially ppl i love..
but wat i concern was about ur growth!

why r u so weak? why cant u be sumone strong like me?
who shd be the one to be blame?
when will u grow up? when will u have the chance to leave the hell where ur staying now..
i reli wish to bring u out from ur place..
i dun wan to c u get hurt by your parents..
feel tired of competing..

i wan u to go thru wat a teenage supposed to do..
i wan u to haf memories..n feel stupid for wat u've done in the future..
i wan u to be happy..
its because i love u..

G