sorry for neglecting my blog again..
i was kinda emo recently..
n bz for assignments..
n duno bz wat..
will post thgs up soon..kekex

曲终人散

渐渐地感到越来越陌生。。
害怕，无奈，生气，怨恨，疑问。。
流泪。。

偶尔回想，
开心，想念，感动，好笑，怀念。。
流泪。。

真的很难压抑。。
尤其是我这种极度情绪化的动物。。
习惯依赖，撒娇，拥抱，
突然要把习惯改掉，真的很难。。
现在的我感到十分空虚，不知所措~

真的不明白
为何会这样。。这样容易放手。。
原来我们的回忆与经历是那么地肤浅~

只能自己一个面对，收拾烂摊子~

Steamboat & Poppy Nite~

had a celebration party wif peculiar razors at talipon laz thurs..
lol..the food there is sibeh nice one!!!!! haha..
RM23.10 per pax..eat til u pee~ haha..


the group of buddies~




the chili who has good movements in sexy move..kekex..

durin nite time i went poppy..
went there wif jefferd, adam and jayson..






















camwhore pic~ lol







jeffered oso use my phone to camwhore..==
had a great nite wif them ^^
ok la..dats all for today..
wanna do mask n sleep luur~

Mooncake festival

Aih..a damn bored one..
wanted to play candles one but no ppl accompany me!!!!
its once a year..
sumone is playing so happily there but me..haiz..
luckily my ex yuk wah came to find me..
brought me to pav for movie~
i noe he wanted to watch where got ghost so badly de la..
thou i watched it..but still i accompany him watch it luur~
i watched twice..twice oso aslept inside the cinema! haha
imagine how bored it was..zzzzz
i was so anticipating but i think liang dao did not do a gud job this time..
the impact was not obvious n great enuf..@@
yeah..yuk wah treat me MOF..then juz walk around..
v supposed to go for dinner at Happy Seasons but suddenly he felt like vomiting..
omg..
so i drove his car..fetched him back home n call my dad to come..
aikss..so unlucky..T.T
gotta wait for nxt year's mooncake festival again..
people say this day is a gud day for couples to gather n being "as round as the moon"
but me..watching the moon alone..haiz..
btw dad bought very nice mooncakes bek home..
n my house got many types of mooncake..eat gao gao@@

let me introduce u guys one gud thgy:









my dad brought mooncakes from this company since years ago..
m i realise dat its always the nyonya's as cover..
well i gues its from a baba nyonya boss? lol..
can u c the sculptures on the mooncakes? nice ler!!!!

n i remember dat day i was looking at my baby hamster..
he's sooo old..till he cant open his eyes..n his hands bengkak gao gao one..

i noe he has not much time left..
in fact he reli pass away on wednesday..
er gor gor, hope u can have better life in future~
che che luvs u..thank u for appearing in my life n bring so much happiness to my fam



his corpse..T.T gonna miss u forever~

My Holidays

this sem juz got 2 weeks break~
the first week i went to melacca wif zhen chen..
dun feel like talking about it la..
u guys go c those pics in my fb la..

Saturday:
I went to times square and sg wang wif zi xian..haf a look at 8TV's carnival..damn banyak orang one..n i saw baby ashie!!! lol..then nitetime i went to yun han's farewell party..she went to India ad!! T.T

Sunday:
went to haf lunch at dragon-i wif family..mum ordered those dishes dat i dun reli like..didnt reli enjoy actually~zz walk around..n saw geraldine..she was so gud..thought of buying sum food for her mum before goin bek to johor..nitetime i went to jln ipoh..had dinner at uma wif joshua, jeff and sian sian..^^
talk alot..non stop lol..then around 10 we went to josh's house to celebrate his birthday..









joshua says: finally im 18!!!!! huhu..can go club ady..

2nd week:
Monday: Break up..crying..dun worry im fine now..at least we nvr lose each other and care for each other..

Tuesday: Go Sing k wif zi xian at redbox gardens..lol









thz babe for encouraging me to go for encore..
i think its time for me to go bek to my singing career..
heart u loads..

Wednesday: Stay at home..evelyn called me to follow her to genting..i wanted to..but too rush ady..i cant make it~ Yuk wah drove me to kepong for dinner during the nitetime..went to kepong foodcourt again..lol..thank u my dear..for accompanying me when im so upset~

Thurday: Went to maison..drink and dance..i prefer MOS..got big big danceflr..can dance wif guys lo..maison one is so small...but still can dance wif guys lar~ hehe..
went sushi king for dinner..ichiban is still the best..n i kept promoting ichiban while eating!!!! lolx..












the rapist..haha..








can u c my reaction? lol..
n the pics below is the couple~ ryan n eva^^





camwhore pics..










Friday: nothing to do..sit at home..facebook and blog..looking for the details of the personal grooming courses..

Weekends: omg..this is the most horrible weekend im gonna face..its the mooncake festival..couples play candles and lanterns ler..
leaving me alone watching the moon..while he is goin to haf great fun in his buddies house for 2 nites..i reli muz find sumthg to do otherwise i will keep thinking n thinking again..@@

school reopens..time table sucks! dats wat i can say..lol..

Take care my dear Han Han

Had a steamboat farewell party at yun han's house last sat..
while me n sian discovering her room..
we found out a photo frame wif a pic of 3 of us~



v took this when we were frm3..i reli couldnt blif dat she had frame this pic up..n place it on her make up desk!!!!
i reli feel touched wif it..i wanna cry dy but paiseh ler..

Dear Jaimie:

another hour u will b sitting in a plane heading to India..
separating wif all the people in Malaysia for a year..
thank u for being such a gud fren wif me for al these years..
thou v contact less but our frenship will nvr get worse..
im proud to haf a fren like u...
missing those days v hang out together every morning and recess..
those days v sing together and go for competition..
study for exams..
take care of urslf when ur in India..



me and sian will heart u always~ ^^
remember to gif us discount for teeth treatment in the future..xp

It Comes to The Boundaries Already

i've been struggling since friday..
thinking of the plan: being a fren is much more better than being a couple..

finally i let go..
maybe because i want him to care for me for life...?
sumtimes i can be rational and let go easily..
its like i agree and understand y both of us need to do so..
but sumtimes i reli get very emo and lose control..
especially during the nights..
felt very insecure without his accompaniment..

so i will keep calling and disturb him..
i reli dun wan it..but i reli cant take it...
wonder y he can bail so easily continue his life like there's ntg happen before...
n im the one to clean up the mess..?
my emo probs, mum's nagging and she disallow me to pak tor anymore..
treat me sumthg like i was in secondary school and lock me at home..

finally he gets mad and scold me..for disturbing him..
say frens wont kacau each other,
but does he noe y im doin so?

i noe myslf clear..i reli cant let go..
even for life i oso will keep disturb..
dats y i rather walk away from him for life..not even a fren anymore..
yes i will cont crying anytime i feel like doing so,,
but i will try my best to hide from him...

its juz a week ago v had our vacation..
its unbelievable dat things happen dat fast..
i'll try to cope...
feeling numb nw..cant even cry jor~

i remember wat choon mei told me during the day v had our eng finals..
u're rite my dear..
sumtimes being frens will be much more better than being couple..
at least sum ppl he care for his frens more than his gf..
he thinks dat friends is everthg for his whole life...

i reli understand this theory..
but y couldnt i juz let go?
y m i so stubborn? reli so dat obssesed?

i reli noe im ntg compared to ur frens..
but i still remain silent..
so is this the right way?

alicia..ur not a stupid human being..when will u be rational instead of emotional?
my head is swimming~~~~

Cherng,

I love you baby~ ^^
I like you hold my hand..
n go wherever u want..
Im always here for u..
muacksss

Holiday!!!!!! ^^

yay..finali i've finish my exams!!!!
start to plan on vacations and stuff lo!!!! XD
i got so many plans wif me right now...haha

1)go bek to my mask habits..lol..skincare is damn important one!
share wif u guys one gud thg:



function: relieve skin stress..makes u indulged!
reli very comfortable wif it.. RM6.90 per pcs nia!
buy it in the face shop! hoho..

2)go vacation wif my hubby!!!!
3)go for personal grooming class..Expression Master? or Diva production?
4)learn sum new software..shd upgrade myslf duh..
5)hong kong drama!!!! yeah...long time nvr watch tv dy...
muz get sumthg to watch..
6)slim down..mum say me fat jor..later cherng cherng dun wan me
7)go partay!!!!
8)get joyee her birthday present..
9)plan for Encore publicity and promotion event..
10)learn cooking!!! christmas is cuming ler..wanna do sumthg for hubby..^^
11)practise my piano..dec exam ler..T.T
12)hang out wif CHOON MEI, ZI XIAN, PIG PIG n any other frens ;)

hmm..dats wat i plan for..
juz feel so happy for this sem holidays..
cz i've got wat i wan..gudboi cherng..
no worries if he flirt wif gals again i ma go flirt wif guys lo..XP
(cherng will kill me if he saw this..)

i duno y i wil b so giddy whenever i c my boii..
its like awww~ i miss him..^^
as long as he is wif me i wun care about other thgs..
whole brain thinking of him..haha..sapo betul
n my mum wun reli nag me in studies..
holidays mar~

so buddies, wats ur plan for holidays huh?
btw i gtg now..
bath, dress up and go pick baby cherng and go gai gai lo^^



Cherng cherng!!!! (ppl who noe me will noe how i shout at his name! XD)