Cant Think For Any Title Right Now

well..
actually i m emoing now..
cuz i read sumone's blog..
n wonder alot..
hesitate for many many things deep down inside..
its bcuz of the past of mine which had caused tones of confusion inside my mind..
i wish to protect myself from being hurt again...
yet since i read a book bout sumone's past..

its about a gal n the guy she loves..but she didnt dare to accept him
cz she was afraid to get hurt..
the guy loves her too..but he din dare to confess as he afraid dat the gal will reject him..
thou he has a gf..n they get married in england..
he still love the girl very muchie..
years later the guy had kids..
the girl was still lonely..still a virgin..n got breast n womb cancer..
she was stil alive now..but lying on the bed of a hospital in taiwan..

i thought dat v should appreciate wat we haf before it left..
but im reli damn coward to face all this kinda thgs again n again..
thou it makes me grow..
perhaps....
n maybe...

sumtimes v love sumone very much till v did things without considering from all parts, didnt we?

izzit right for me to choose this path in such short time?
im hesitating...