Anger,Nervous,Excited,Dissapointment and Anticipations in a day~

Early morning i went to college wif william again..wanna study for translation ar!!!!

then v park at PA blk punya carpark lot..

aiks..the carpark was so...small..guess y?

its bcoz of an idiot lecturer used 1 1/3 of the carpark unit..wtf...

and the kembara bhind me is oso parking kinda front..

i inisist to park there bcoz its the oni shady spot i found..n its near to the library..

dats y..i get very mad n decided to leave a "love note" for him/her when im leaving and park outside college hall..

so brainless la!!! hmmmppphhh!!!

the so called love note..XD

well..feeling so syok after fooling the car's owner..

william kept laughing there..wakaka~

We juz study in the car..then no longer derek n yogurt joined us...

then my car was bombed wif benny benassi's satisfaction..adoi...!!!!!

my whole car was shaking..it was like a small version MOS!!! hahaha..

my zo-ba...spoilt jor la!!! TT...adoi!

1.50pm..v prepared ourselves n walk towards blk v..everyone was waiting at blk V...

n these are the dictionaries i brought..crazy rite? XD

samson appear and most of the broadcasters were screaming..

bcoz his hair is soooooo red!!!! haha...~ the symbol of CNY! adoi!!!XD

b4 exam starts, everyone chose their seats and fill in the attendance slip...

zyro sat bhind me..then sudenly he ask ms chitra when the exam was about to start..

"teacher, y my paper got chinese one? im not taking chinese one wor!!!"

then he oni realised he got into the wrong class...haha..the whole venue was laughing la!!!

doomed! haha..

exam started n exam ended..the paper was ok la..hope dat i can get an A!!!

to save my poor e media..aiksss...

i was singing da tuan yuan after ms chitra collected my paper! haha..

yuhoo!!!! fin exam ler!!! can celebrate CNY le!!! but there is still another paper aft CNY lo!!!

but nvm la...i was so happy n keep thinking of CNY now~

thinking of buying clothes n handbags again..==\

n i can go find my hairstylist n do treatment jor la!!! adoi! anticipating

after exam, i fetched william back to GK...

then me, derek n tarzan went to pavilion!! lolx..

me n derek were pavilion kakis!!! love pav alot la ok? crazy for it!

v went there n eat carls jnr again!!! wuhuhu..im a big fan of carls junior ok?!

cheers to all carl's fans!!!

hehe..big big superstar^^

the new product bacon wif fried chicken ham...nice one too^^

but of coz i still prefer superstar lo! a must try item!

after dat v went to sasa again..juz walk around n continue shopping around in pav..

then tarzan kepoh..went into clinique and get consultance..

haha...the consultancy was so interesting til me n derek oso go get consult...

both of us belong to the oily n dry skin..adoi.. while tarzan is oily skin type lo! XD

n i nid to unclog my pores!!! wtf...hate the sun..hate pigmentation..zz

3 of us oso zuan dao la! got clinique de sample nerh!!

but of coz im the luckiest la! coz i've got the moisturizer..n the toner!!!

nenebubu derek..u lose le la! haha..

hehe..this is wat i got lar!!! wakaka~

this product is reli nice..can c the effect immediately ler!!! but too expensive...

so i gotta save money for this again...

CLINIQUE will b my nxt aim!!! muahahaha~

when i was happying at the moment, my mum suddenly called n scold me again..

haiz..sad..scold me for going out again..

hey..my last day of exam nerh! i wanna go release stress oso knot de ar?

sumore ask me go home n study my piano theory n practise piano..

n then say will cut my pocket money..wtf...i was screwed again...

but i had to hide my feelings again..n juz smile in front of my frens again..

so tiring..i juz wanna get sum peace..live like a college student..but then..

she always ruined my plannings...aiksss..suan le ba..

after hanging in clinique, v went to padini! omg!!!

i saw new stuffs again..polo T!!!! shit..

more n more things to buy..zzzzzz

juz walk around..n went back around 9 sumthg..i fetched tarzan to feeling cafe and fetched derek home..then juz drove home alone..

haiz..derek n tarzan r goin to visit pavilion again tomorrow..but me?!

i was ffk-ed by sumone..damn dissapointed..

gotta sit alone and face my mum at home again..damn scared now..

where shd i hide tomolo? i juz dun wanna stay at home..

my mum's working night again tomolo..

haiz..spoil my poor nerves again..adoi! aduhai!!! malangnya nasib aku ni!!! =X

Now i can juz anticipate new year's coming..then i can get angpau..n buy my Clinique products lar!!! wakaka~

And anticipates this coming friday~ coz im home alone ler!!! n maybe im goin out wif frens again..

i used to watch movie once a week..but now its like...

so long i haf not been watching movie ad!!!

last 6 months i will keep update new movies..but now its like..no more updates..

wat movies were not shown ad i oso duno..n hvnt watch! wat happen to me ar?

haiz..i gues..tomolo i gotta go to the cinema alone..TT..

hide in a black box n get entertainment instead of being at home ba?

wat a me!!!

o ya~ anticpate goin clubbing wif broadcasters during this sem break..

n i wanna go melacca ar!!! i nid vacation!!!! no vacation i will die!!!! zz

Tensed...

I was studying translation n preparing for tomolo's test...
I choose to study in library, and my friend's house bcoz i dun wan to c my mum..
c her n listen to her mumbling in front of me..
n try my best to avoid arguing wif her...
but then i duno y she can still purposely call me up n scold me...
around 12 sumthg i drove to hao di fang from college..she saw my car n follow my car...
then scold me for parking outside instead at home..
sumore park at those sunny bright places..
madam..i park at shady place ok? r u blind?!
n i juz go there to haf my lunch oni ok? i rather eat outside oso dun wanna eat at home bcoz i dun wanna c ur face!!!!!!
1sumthg I had park my car back to the carpark and walk to yogurt's house to study...
then u call me n scold me again for still parking outside..say i dun love my car and wat nonsense idiot things..
reli pissed off la me!!! wtf!!!!
then my mood bcame better when i met yogurt n william..
n get peace while studying...
i came home around 7.. had my dinner alone bcoz my mum went of to work..
working night shift today..kinda happy coz i can study alone at home..
daddy is attending a funeral tonite..his uncle passed away ad..haiz..
same day s my grandpa..aiksss...
then juz now my mum juz call up again..
scold me for parking my car under the sun..n didnt wear a jacket as i wear low cut today..
hey madam, r u blind?? the whole day i was sweating bcoz of da black jacket ok?!
when u saw me i was wif the jacket!!!! reli ar..
scold me for nonsense..
sumore scold me for not attending piano classs..say wanna let me continue n finish my 3 dips for piano..
till now u still dun understand! i wanna learn guitar and drumset.. n i hate piano..
to me piano class is already a burden! i've said so many times but y u still nvr get wat i wan?!
n blame me din study well dats y e media paper was screwed up!!!
aunty..u try my paper la! wtf!!! if u can finish everything in 2 hrs..
u go continue n get ur master la wtf!!!
reli ar..spoil my poor nerves bcoz of ur idiot words!!! its not i didnt study!
its impossible dat i wont study..u shd noe me well!!!!
but u didnt..now im thinking..
even v look the same..but m i really the one who came out from ur tummy?
#@$!*&()&%&!#@$$(%*&*^%&@#^%#!$@#~%^%*^(*&%
hate u!!!! oways force me n gif me pressure!!!!
oways ask me nonsense n talk rubbish..
cant u juz gimme space?
oways check on my hp..curi my things n c!!!
this is wat i hate the most!!! wtf!!!!
i tell u..sure i will take revenge one day...
u wait for the hari kiamat bah!!! hmmmmmmppppphhhhh!!!!!!!!!
if tomolo i m not doing well my paper..i wil thank u..
for giving me so much pressure n spoil my study mood..
i dun wanna study ad..tomolo's paper..i plan to fail...
dun wan take care of ur face anymore..
oways juz use me to lan c ppl n take my results s ur face!!!!
hate dat la!!!! im stressed!!!!

Unlucky E Media Exam...

I woke up around 5am to study my e media this morning.

untill 8.30am oni go bath and prepare to go to college n study again..

i fetched yogurt n william n then derek..

after having breakfaz v went to study room n study luur~

aiyo..sienz dao...

duno wat to study..n duno how to study la..

coz..so many subtitles and duno which one is which one ad jor!!! aikssss...

then v play wif derek's white scarf...

this is yogurt la!!! ^^

actu she is smiling..but not very obvious..this gal ar..reli funi gal..being wif her...c her laughing is very fun de..haha..

around 12 she left and left 3 of us continue studying..

until 2pm v sat for the exam..

OMFG! the question is easy but too many things to write lar!!!!

i haf not enuf time to fin my thgs ler!!!!! untill the last minute..i was still writing again..

haiz..the pengawas asked me to tie up my paper but i just ignore her and continue writing..

then she get mad and ask me to tie up again..i tied up n gif it to her..

she said..u can continue writing..v will wait..

then i juz continue write my last sentence..then she rampas my paper away n say:

"u noe i can throw ur paper away?"

i was like...grrrrr...fine..i noe its my fault...

then my tears started to burst out once i left the college hall..aiks..so scared that she really will throw my paper away..

until samson go ask our subject lecturer ms.kik then i oni fongsam abit..

haiz..wat a day..so bad mood after the exam..

i cried for awhile then drove william n derek to jusco..treat ourselves mcd..

coz all of us were not happy for the e media test..everyone oso failed to finish the whole paper 100%ly..

well..e5 gang joined us..samson too! ^^

v fin mcd then go kfc again..==

but im not eating lar..coz full ad..

me, william and derek went to the arcade..william dance,me n derek drive..then v play basketball..haha..siao la 3 of us..william play untill sweat sumore! haha..

william was busy dancing there..XD

after dat we went to kfc and continue hanging wif e5 gang..

then my mum called me and ask me to go home..haiz..

i juz wanna release stress oso canot..i was reli unhappy today luur~

derek n william went to the mens department..looking for briefs..haha...

haha..like those aunty shopping..hahaz..

william bought a sexy red brief ler!!!! like wanna wear it n do show! wakaka~

got silver dots de..cant c it in this pic oni..wakaka~

shining n striking nerh? haha..

after dat v juz left and go home luur~

vincent i got sumthg to tell u..i noe ur so busy studying wif ur classmates rite there..

so i dun wanna kacau u n say it here la..

but oso duno u will read my blog onot today..

hehe..my dear dear mama..muz add oil in ur exam ohh!!!!

but dun study till too late..u nid rest oso ar..if not u cant concentrate when ur driving to college..

and also cant concentrate when ur examing ler!

i dun wanna hear bad news from u de ar!!! wish u luck oh...all the best to u!!!

dun forget to sms me when u r about to sleep lar~

muacks...n dun forget to spend sum time to think of me... n dun speed ar my dear!

muacksssssss!!!!!!!!! my dear mama...i miss u!!! ^^

long hair version of mama..^^ like a gal nerh!

short hair version..leng zai la..i like it! ^^

If I Were A Boy~

To: Sumone special inside my heart,


If I were a boy even just for a day
I'd roll out of bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted
And go drink beer with the guysAnd chase after girls
I'd kick it with who I wanted
And I'd never get confronted for it'
Cause they stick up for me

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man
I'd listen to her'
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted'
Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it's broken
So they'd think that
I was sleeping alone
I'd put myself first
And make the rules as I go'
Cause I know that she'd be faithful
Waiting for me to come home, to come home

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man
I'd listen to her'
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted'
Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

It's a little too late for you to come back
Say it's just a mistake
Think I'd forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong
But you're just a boy
You don't understand
And you don't understand, oh
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you wish you were a better man
You don't listen to her
You don't care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted'
Cause you're taking her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But you're just a boy...

hope dat u will think how to b a better bf after reading this lyrics luur~
and appreciate ur gf lar!!! dun make her feel sad, dissapointed..
to girls, love is a very big big thing..dats y..
u muz gif her happiness, dun lie to her, dun betray her..
be her better man bah!
muacks!!!!!^^
and if u make her dissapointed..i will bite u de ar!!!
n then throw the scramble eggs left that i'd cooked for vincent on u de ar!!! blekkkkkk!!!
XP

Happened in Exam Week~

haiz...2 wks b4 CNY is the final exam arrrrr!!!!!

everyone was preparing so hard..but im still so lazy..no exam mood at all ler!!!

juz went to pyramid and study wof my baby vincent..then go shopping sumore!!!!

vincent's study look..

^^ muacksss

study at derek's house..study at zenc's house...aiyo..

like dun haf my own house and study...haha...

this wk i had 3 subjects: English, BM and Tamadun..

well...this 3 oso ok gua..

The Eng paper..aiyo..i was too slow..until the last 5 minutes i was juz writing the 2nd last paragraph of my essay..

and i hvnt finish section D ler!!!!

haha..i saw derek's worried face..he was sitting bside me during examination was goin on..

but in the end, i made it la..hehe..

aiyo, my essay is like...no writing techniques ar all!!! alicia is not like alicia who writes with her passion dat day...haiz..sure get very low marks one!!!

the nxt day..15/1 is the first day my baby vincent sit for his exam lar!!!!

dat day i woke up around 6.30am n prepare breakfaz for him ler!!!!

then 8am drove to skul n gif it to him..wif anticipation..c his happy face..

but in the end...haiz...he din eat fin my food ar!!!!

sumore is the scramble eggs!!! which i 've used most of the time to make one..

n a ji a jor say no sugar no salt!!! hmmmppphhh!!!

vincent!!! im mad ad!!! wanna put ur ugly pic here to take revenge le!!!!!! ><

hmmm..ur kemek face!!!

haiz..i left college around 8.30am..went back home to continue my sleep..

my heart n effort all wasted ad!!haiz..nxt time i dun wanna do the breakfaz ad!!!!

hmmmmmpppphhhh!!!!! tot wanna c ur happy face for eating my hand made breakfaz..but then..haiz..dissapointed la me!!!!

around 10 i departed to college again..went to library and study..zz

then fetch derek go c2 buy lunch and eat inside my car...

me n derek study inside the car and wait for the arrival of 2 pm..


while waiting, derek was kepoh..when my classmates were parking at the same lot as my car in front the college hall, he stood up in my car n kept screaming there.so this is his buttock la! haha

well, BM was quite easy..

v juz went home after dat n prepare to die for tamadun test!!!

i juz slpt for 4 hrs dat nite..

n the second day woke up at 5am to study and go to college around 8am!!!

hmm..but wat i studied reli came out ler!!! kinda happy for it..

even though i forgot some points la..aikksss...im old ad..

cant remember dat much jor~

the exam supposed to end at 11 am..

but i left the exam hall around 10.15am..

coz..too easy ad..XD

alot of ppl came out around dat time too!!!!

n v juz waited outside there...planning for activities after this tamadun shit exam!!!!!

well..finally v decided to go sing k..

6 of us went there..im the driver==

me, derek,evelyn, jia hao,william and tarzan...haha..

aiyo..tarzan had to hide when v met cops..zz...

coz..there were 4 ppl sitting bhind..n everyone muz fasten their seatbelts..

haiz...wat kinda rules is this??!!! so mafan ler!!!!

aiyo..v were so high!!! especially tarzan!! lolx..

tarzan u sang so well ler!!!

promise me v go take part astro talent quest for this yr ok???

dun waste ur talent ler!!! haha..

aiyo..william was so quiet in the k room..

me oso..both of us were so exhausted n sleepy...


maybe its bcoz v studied to much a night b4..n store so many tamadun shit into our brain!!!!

wel...singing k was fun! its been 3 months i din visit the k room jor la!!!!

yesterday i reli released my stress..exam stress...n it was reli FUN!!! but exhausted..

around 4 v went home..everyone's voice was so sexy after singing..

i also haf sorethroat ad!!

haha..

all of us were so quiet when v were on the way back home..

i slept early last night..n busy doin mask..hehe..

this morning i woke up i realised there is a msg from the "silent" guy--> ash

kinda surprised actually..coz i din expect he will appear when i miss him..

adakah semua ini takdir?? memang kami ada jodoh la...haha..

coz..he shd noe i will scold him if he sms me..

but..duno y la..haiz..maybe this is reli fate ba?!

meanwhile, monkey arrived malaysia le!!! he came from australia..

this guy ar!!! sms me n wake me up around 5 sumthg once he arrived malaysia..

too bad..i kept my phone at the living room..sumore in a silent mode..so he failed to wake me up!!! haha..

monkey, im anticipating the day of meeting u ler!!! hahaz..

mus bring mai ur gf along n show me wer..kekekex...

sat morning, i woke up n on9 study..

around 4 i went to fetch my mum.. she is working today..

then v went to pavilion for dinner..

n walk around..

arghhhh!!!!! i saw clothes i wan in padini and MNG...

i swear i will go there after my final!!! hehe...

if not im not Alicia ar!!!!hahaha..

haiz..tired la..

wanna do mask ad...

vincent, i miss u so much,,this wk juz can c u for 2 days..did u noe how much i miss u??

hope to c u soon...haiz..

n hope u can stay at my area arrrrrr!!!! then v can meet gao gao for ur last sem..

haiz..how m i goin to survive without u in the nxt nxt sem??

ur goin to leave le!!!! aiyo!!! i wanna cry jor la!!!! wuwuwuw~

shd i follow u go taylors?? but i wanna go uk la n get my degree la!!!!

haiz..let time prove everythg lo..

Sumthg Hidden for So Long..

recently i'd watch titanic again...

this is the 5th time im watching it le..

5 times watching 5 times crying..

i've learnt to appreciate ppl who i love and the ppl who loves me..sacrifice for me..

i recalled for the past when i watch the movie..

i remembered sumone very special who had appeared in my life...

dats a HE...a guy, who is "silent" with me...

hardly can find dat "silent" guy like him in the whole world ad...

sumone can talk to me from night till day..day till night..

sumone can talk about titanic wif me for the whole night..

sumone can talk the same thg as me at the same time EVERYTIME..

i wanted to c our pictures back so much...n recall back sum memories thru a diary..

those days v had been thru for 5 yrs..unfortunately...

the diary is not with me now..

n i've deleted all our pictures in my lappie..(regretted)

without any backup..

luckily one of my fren stole one of our picture..n this is the picture left wif me currently..

the only one..

its a very long story of u n me..

v've been thru so many ups and downs..

arguements and forgiving..

happiness, sad, anger, fury, complicated feelings..

v knew each other too well...

finally i noe the truth...

maybe this is the way u confess and loved me..thats y u let go..

u knew it wont last long..u knew u will fail..dats y u nvr gif both of us a chance..

now i wont blame u anymore..

the first sem..the whole sem v were not talking..

even if v see each other in college, v will juz act like strangers and walked by...

do u noe how complicated was my feelings during dat time??

i showed my anger and the face i dulan u instead of a sad face..

bcoz i dun wanna lose..i dun wanna let u c how weak im..

but i gues, u will noe wat was reli under my skin dat time..

actually during the finals of the first sem, i was keep looking at my 45 degrees in the college hall..
dat was u..wearing a maroon jacket..answering the IT paper wif 100% concentration..

dat moment, i was thinking u noe how to answer the paper ar?

u dun haf notes ok? haiz...pity u...worrying for u..but i noe u can do it..n wished u luck..

ppl might tell u dat i always scolded u and F u in class..say u dai sei and bla x3

but ppl who understands me well knew y i did so..

actu dats my way to concern u..juz dun wanna use it in the kind way..

u noe? when u sms me for the last time..sms me to help u in ur album.. and repair our broken
frenship..

i was thinking for the whole day...struggling..

but in the end, i choose the path of rejecting u...sumore..

in a mean way..juz 9 words...meant u dun deserve to b a fren of mine..

i hope u understand y i do so..if u dun..then i say it here ba...

bcoz i noe im weak..i noe if i continue this frenship..i will juz hurt myslf..

coz..i care for u more than myslf..watever i do..i will think of u at first...

till now sumtimes..when i pass by sumwhere, i will still think of ur face..wat vr doin..and our
conversation..

i dun hlp u its bcoz i dun wan u take thgs for granted..

ur too lucky..dats y u seldom appreciate..

i can c it from the things u used daily..how they broke, unfunctionable..

n i think study is more important than being a popstar now..

dats y i choosed not to support u..in this kind of way..

well, i noe i will regret for my whole life..to lose a fren like u..but...

i've decided to walk on this path in the end...sorry seems to be the hardest word...

im now thinking..how r u recently..wat ur doing..n will u still think of me even though i treat u in
a mean way...

its a long time v'd nvr communicate.. haf u change to another human being? or u were stil sumone special like wat i'd known yrs ago?

i...
miss..
you...

but i can do ntg..i will still choose not to talk to u..

but i swear if i c u again nxt time..i will gif u a pleasant smile..

a smile wif full of concern, blessings, regards to ur family..

yet a smile of a stranger..

if u use ur heart to c it..u will feel it..

the world is so small..i believe dat v will meet again sumday..

thank u for everything..

frankly, u taught me to b strong..b tough..b patient..

taught me singing..

brightened up my day...

u changed my world..from sumone Very very extreme emo to sumone very emo...

u will b inside my heart for the rest of my life =)

thank you..^^

Insane Saturday~~~

i went to klcc again with my mum while waiting for my car's repairing...

i banged on it, the front bumper since a month ago..

so my car was "smiling" for the whole month.. XD

n even one day..my car num plate fell down n i was driving without a plate in front for da whole day!!!! XD

hmm..we went into Isetan and look around..

n i was "in love" wif Soda apparel suddenly..so i approach to the corner and haf a look..

50%!!!! then i was crazy again...

try lots of shirt..n dress..

but in the end i juz bought some OL lo...so that i wont b murmuring when it comes to a presentation..scolding dat i always wear the same one for presentation..

of coz for some tops oso la..kekex..

my second destiny was Sasa again!!!! OMG!!!! I've bought mask again!!!!

promotion ler!!! sure buy gao gao one!!!!

RM20.90 for 2 box of mask (3-4 packets inside)..which usually costs RM19.90 per box!!!

its worth it ok???!!!!!

i bought le 8 boxes..n used RM85 for it..zz..

wat kinda function oso got la..rejuvenating, whitening, brightening, cleansing, hydrating..haha..

m i crazy??
n now..currently i got 44 pcs of mask inside my fridge..zzzz

the masks inside my fridge? not dat many rite?

hmm..n till now im still wondering b4 15th Jan i can visit dat shop n buy sumore again..

bcoz 15th is the last day of promotion jor la!!!!aikkkkssssss!!!!!!

the rose one is very nice ok?? reli feel good la my skin after using it!!!!!!

after dat i treated my mum..New Zealand Natural ice cream..damn nice one la..

coz sum of the flavours are sugar free!..suits my mum who hates sweet food..haha..

the choco mint is nice..alicia recommends it!!!! ^^

around 4 my dad came to klcc too..to fetch us go to the repair centre and collect my car..

yuhhooooo!!!! my car is like normal car ad!!! no ppl will look at u strangely anymore jor la!!! XD

then v juz went home..

my mum was busy preparing for a dinner in klang..while me..

haiz..i gotta b solo at home..n sumore cook maggi mee as dinner!!!

well..actually its me to choose not to attend the wedding dinner..

bcoz i dun wan to perform again..everytime go on stage n sing..very stress one u noe?!

n everytime i attend wedding dinner i will think alot...

wonder when is only the time i get married..n will i b lucky to meet sumone who reli loves me for his whole life..n protect me..n gif me promises in the future..n treat me well after marriage..

will the guy loves me or juz wan me for my family properties?

do i love the guy? will i marry to sumone i dun love but he loves me? alot la..haiz...

im juz 18!!! but i can think like 28 yrs old ad..zzzzzzzz

dats y im very scared...haiz...

the whole nite i was juz studying alone..n do mask alone...think of the past alone..until i fell aslp..